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Finding it hard to stick to this.. It takes 21 days to form a habit. It became a habit on day 10. Now, it's difficult to stick to this. I haven't watched my food intake in two days. Friday: biryani for lunch and snack, followed by a couple bites at dinner while feeding my daughter. No exercise.

Today, rice and veges for lunch and a chai so far. I'm going to force myself to exercise now. Dinner at friends tonight. I dont wanna go. That's where I get derailed. I either end up eating a lot or a little, and then come home hungry and wanna eat everything. Baby's napping right now. Let me do an hour. Maybe I will feel motivated again, but trouble is I got a full stomach. I had eaten lunch alone but hubby fed me five big bites later with his hands. I couldn't possibly say 'no' to his loving hands.

I don't wanna give up.


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I did NOT give up.

As soon as I posted the above stuff, I got on the bike and worked out for 80 minutes. My sis-in-law called, in the meantime, to tell me she'd seen my latest facebook photo and I looked thinner. Well, well! :) .. I was hoping to lift weights thereafter but baby woke up and we had to get ready to go to the party.

I showered and the dreaded moment arrived: I had to choose clothes to wear. I hate it coz nothing fits and nothing looks right. It's always a moment of disappointment. I wanted to wear a shirt and pants but my hubby wanted me to wear shalwar qameez. .. I glanced into the closet. I've been eyeing this shalwar qameez that I had never worn before coz it didn't fit. Since I had nothing to wear, I reluctantly reached for the qameez. I was sure it wouldn't fit but the only reason I grabbed it was to see how much longer before I could fit into it.

I wore the first outfit. It fit! ... But I had to take it off coz the shalwar was see-through.

My hubby suggested I try on the second one. "Oh, that will NEVER fit.. That was probably meant for my skinny sister-in-law but it accidentally ended up in my pile."

"At least try it on."

"Okay.."

IT FIT!!!!!!!!! There was a slight bunch-up in the tummy area. My hubby suggested I wear my spanx underneath. "Oh, spanx? They won't fit. The last time I wore them I almost suffocated!"

"Well, last time you were a lot heavier."

The spanx fit. I looked seamless and I felt goooood.

"I wish I had started this program before. What was I waiting for? I just might be one of those folks who lose weight very quickly!"

"See, you got baby-fat! Unlike the fat I got piled on which is stiff, yours will melt easily, say 7 or 8 months.."


7 or 8 months? The rate at which I'm melting away like a candle, it looks like I'll drop the pounds entirely in 6 months. But let's not get ahead of myself. I don't wanna set myself up. Slow and steady, slow and steady.. Lifestyle change, remember? Yes!