Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Bad day
So many toxic people. So many issues. Unnecessary issues. My heart is breaking right now. I'm trying to keep it together.
Monday, May 10, 2010
wow, more than a month...
i last wrote on april 8. although i've been away from the blog, i haven't given up.
i joined a gym on april 15 and have regularly worked out for an hour and a half almost every day. i'm proud of myself.
i haven't lost a great deal of weight, yet... which is okay because i want to stick to the program and go slow rather than bust my ass and then give up, disillusioned for not being able to see quick results.
i am, however, finding it hard to control my diet. i dont count calories and i dont keep a food journal. i'm tempted to try slim fast but i'm afraid of starvation diets. hmm.
i joined a gym on april 15 and have regularly worked out for an hour and a half almost every day. i'm proud of myself.
i haven't lost a great deal of weight, yet... which is okay because i want to stick to the program and go slow rather than bust my ass and then give up, disillusioned for not being able to see quick results.
i am, however, finding it hard to control my diet. i dont count calories and i dont keep a food journal. i'm tempted to try slim fast but i'm afraid of starvation diets. hmm.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Back on track..
Exercised for 45 minutes yesterday using the bike. Ate small portions.
Woke up at 5:30 a.m. and exercised to Billy Blanks' video along with my husband. The workout's tough so we lasted only 20 minutes. After that, I used the bike for 30 minutes.
Breakfast: tea and two slices of pizza. I know it doesn't sound too good but..
Brunch: Protein bar.
Lunch: Small bowl of chicken and potatoes.
Snack: Half a banana.
Dinner: Small bowl of chicken and rice.
Woke up at 5:30 a.m. and exercised to Billy Blanks' video along with my husband. The workout's tough so we lasted only 20 minutes. After that, I used the bike for 30 minutes.
Breakfast: tea and two slices of pizza. I know it doesn't sound too good but..
Brunch: Protein bar.
Lunch: Small bowl of chicken and potatoes.
Snack: Half a banana.
Dinner: Small bowl of chicken and rice.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Struggling..
Trying to hang on. I'm watching what I'm eating but I haven't exercised at all. I had strawberries for breakfast, couscous for lunch, tangerines for snack, and half a bowl of manicotti for dinner. The baby didn't sleep much today so I couldn't exercise. Maybe I should use the bike for half an hour at least. I will feel better. I don't want to give up.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Off the wagon..
Family visit. Party. Bye-bye, bandwagon.
Trying to redeem myself. It will be hard getting back on track. But I'm willing to try again.
Trying to redeem myself. It will be hard getting back on track. But I'm willing to try again.
Friday, March 19, 2010
interesting day....
woke up and had a banana. then had a bowl of soup and a baguette. the soup was 100 calories. not bad and very filling.
lunch: had half a roti, 1/3 baguette and a small plate of butter chicken.
snack: a cup of apricot meetha.
dinner: 5 Tbsp rice, 2 Tbsp butter chicken, 4 Tbsp sauteed meat.
no formal exercise except a walk around the neighborhood holding my daughter in my arms and running errands for 2 hours prior to that. i'm tempted to sit on the bike and pedal away but a) i'm sleepy, 2) i'm too full.
i'm mysteriously feeling very full easily these days. maybe my stomach's shrinking! it's amazing how little our body needs to get by. still, we overeat.
today, i celebrated a little accomplishment: my diet/exercise routine is 26 days old. i've never stuck to anything for this long. it's worth tipping the hat for!
lunch: had half a roti, 1/3 baguette and a small plate of butter chicken.
snack: a cup of apricot meetha.
dinner: 5 Tbsp rice, 2 Tbsp butter chicken, 4 Tbsp sauteed meat.
no formal exercise except a walk around the neighborhood holding my daughter in my arms and running errands for 2 hours prior to that. i'm tempted to sit on the bike and pedal away but a) i'm sleepy, 2) i'm too full.
i'm mysteriously feeling very full easily these days. maybe my stomach's shrinking! it's amazing how little our body needs to get by. still, we overeat.
today, i celebrated a little accomplishment: my diet/exercise routine is 26 days old. i've never stuck to anything for this long. it's worth tipping the hat for!
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Derailed.. almost
I was 100% sure I would get derailed today and fall into pieces. I had cereal for breakfast and then followed my kid around. She was particularly difficult today. I picked things up, she threw them around again. I stowed clothes into drawers, she pulled them out. I threw things into the garbage, she put her hand into the garbage and.. you get the picture?
By 12 p.m., I was finished... and not even half a day had gone by. What to do? I gave my baby a bath and warm milk and then hoped she would sleep for a while and I would sit on the bike. My baby didn't sleep till 1 p.m. When she finally did, I realized I had to make a few important calls. I did those and then felt like collapsing on the bed. I decided to go online for a few. I came across an article that focused on women who had lost a lot of weight. I read the first story: this lady had tried everything imaginable and couldn't stick to it. One day, she was staring at her plate. It was piled high with spaghetti. She began to cry. That's when she decided enough was enough.
I felt motivated. I didn't bother reading the rest of it. Instead, I sat on the bike.
20 minutes later, my baby woke up and came sat on my lap. I pedalled for another minute. She decided she didn't want my lap, and preferred to touch the pedal instead. I wouldn't allow that! I begged with her, distracted her, tried to get her attention with the phone. Nothing worked. I tried pedalling another 10 minutes somehow or the other, and then gave up.
I had a plate-full of butter chicken with 1 1/2 roti and thought that was the end of my regimen.
An hour later, we went to the park to take part in the easter egg hunt. That was fun.. and what a glorious day it was!
My friend, who has lost a lot of weight recently, was there too. Her smallest pair of jeans was slipping around her waist. I got motivated again.
After returning home, I took my baby out for a 20 minute walk. But I still wasn't satisfied. At 9 p.m. I popped a movie into the dvd player and sat on the bike for 60 minutes. So all in all, I had a great 90 minute work out and felt good! Rewarded myself with a paratha and a half and a small serving of chicken and potatoes, followed by half a cup of apricot meetha.
!!!
By 12 p.m., I was finished... and not even half a day had gone by. What to do? I gave my baby a bath and warm milk and then hoped she would sleep for a while and I would sit on the bike. My baby didn't sleep till 1 p.m. When she finally did, I realized I had to make a few important calls. I did those and then felt like collapsing on the bed. I decided to go online for a few. I came across an article that focused on women who had lost a lot of weight. I read the first story: this lady had tried everything imaginable and couldn't stick to it. One day, she was staring at her plate. It was piled high with spaghetti. She began to cry. That's when she decided enough was enough.
I felt motivated. I didn't bother reading the rest of it. Instead, I sat on the bike.
20 minutes later, my baby woke up and came sat on my lap. I pedalled for another minute. She decided she didn't want my lap, and preferred to touch the pedal instead. I wouldn't allow that! I begged with her, distracted her, tried to get her attention with the phone. Nothing worked. I tried pedalling another 10 minutes somehow or the other, and then gave up.
I had a plate-full of butter chicken with 1 1/2 roti and thought that was the end of my regimen.
An hour later, we went to the park to take part in the easter egg hunt. That was fun.. and what a glorious day it was!
My friend, who has lost a lot of weight recently, was there too. Her smallest pair of jeans was slipping around her waist. I got motivated again.
After returning home, I took my baby out for a 20 minute walk. But I still wasn't satisfied. At 9 p.m. I popped a movie into the dvd player and sat on the bike for 60 minutes. So all in all, I had a great 90 minute work out and felt good! Rewarded myself with a paratha and a half and a small serving of chicken and potatoes, followed by half a cup of apricot meetha.
!!!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
rough patch
at least it feels like its a rough patch. i'm not feeling too good. i dont feel motivated anymore. i'm doubting my diet and there's too much going on to focus on exercise.
i had cereal for brkfast along with a banana.
for lunch, i had shrimp and veges with rice. i think i ate a lot more than i should've. i used the quarter-plate but i went at it twice, so purpose defeated. lol.
dinner: i had two Tbsp rice with 6 Tbsp butter chicken. my hubby offered to reload my plate but i refused. i was feeling bloated so that helped me say no. but i followed by a cup of dessert, apricot jam topped with pudding. hmm.
no exercise today, other than housework and a grocery trip.
its almost 11 p.m. now. i'm tired and feeling a bit hungry. actually stressed out but trying to fight it. i look at my image in the mirror. things look steady. am i expecting quick results?
i had cereal for brkfast along with a banana.
for lunch, i had shrimp and veges with rice. i think i ate a lot more than i should've. i used the quarter-plate but i went at it twice, so purpose defeated. lol.
dinner: i had two Tbsp rice with 6 Tbsp butter chicken. my hubby offered to reload my plate but i refused. i was feeling bloated so that helped me say no. but i followed by a cup of dessert, apricot jam topped with pudding. hmm.
no exercise today, other than housework and a grocery trip.
its almost 11 p.m. now. i'm tired and feeling a bit hungry. actually stressed out but trying to fight it. i look at my image in the mirror. things look steady. am i expecting quick results?
Memory loss
Can't remember what I ate Monday, but it was within limits. I took a granola bar with me when I went shopping. It was a lifesaver. And I pushed myself to exercise for 70 minutes, which is great. My tailbone's starting to hurt now.. not so great. Hmm.
Tuesday: cereal for breakfast. Lunch: 4 Tbsp rice and daal and a tiny piece of chicken with a naan. It was filling but not over the top. These small plates are working great. Snack: kiwi fruit and half a banana. Exercised for 50 minutes
Tuesday: cereal for breakfast. Lunch: 4 Tbsp rice and daal and a tiny piece of chicken with a naan. It was filling but not over the top. These small plates are working great. Snack: kiwi fruit and half a banana. Exercised for 50 minutes
Saturday, March 13, 2010
:O
Finding it hard to stick to this.. It takes 21 days to form a habit. It became a habit on day 10. Now, it's difficult to stick to this. I haven't watched my food intake in two days. Friday: biryani for lunch and snack, followed by a couple bites at dinner while feeding my daughter. No exercise.
Today, rice and veges for lunch and a chai so far. I'm going to force myself to exercise now. Dinner at friends tonight. I dont wanna go. That's where I get derailed. I either end up eating a lot or a little, and then come home hungry and wanna eat everything. Baby's napping right now. Let me do an hour. Maybe I will feel motivated again, but trouble is I got a full stomach. I had eaten lunch alone but hubby fed me five big bites later with his hands. I couldn't possibly say 'no' to his loving hands.
I don't wanna give up.
.............
I did NOT give up.
As soon as I posted the above stuff, I got on the bike and worked out for 80 minutes. My sis-in-law called, in the meantime, to tell me she'd seen my latest facebook photo and I looked thinner. Well, well! :) .. I was hoping to lift weights thereafter but baby woke up and we had to get ready to go to the party.
I showered and the dreaded moment arrived: I had to choose clothes to wear. I hate it coz nothing fits and nothing looks right. It's always a moment of disappointment. I wanted to wear a shirt and pants but my hubby wanted me to wear shalwar qameez. .. I glanced into the closet. I've been eyeing this shalwar qameez that I had never worn before coz it didn't fit. Since I had nothing to wear, I reluctantly reached for the qameez. I was sure it wouldn't fit but the only reason I grabbed it was to see how much longer before I could fit into it.
I wore the first outfit. It fit! ... But I had to take it off coz the shalwar was see-through.
My hubby suggested I try on the second one. "Oh, that will NEVER fit.. That was probably meant for my skinny sister-in-law but it accidentally ended up in my pile."
"At least try it on."
"Okay.."
IT FIT!!!!!!!!! There was a slight bunch-up in the tummy area. My hubby suggested I wear my spanx underneath. "Oh, spanx? They won't fit. The last time I wore them I almost suffocated!"
"Well, last time you were a lot heavier."
The spanx fit. I looked seamless and I felt goooood.
"I wish I had started this program before. What was I waiting for? I just might be one of those folks who lose weight very quickly!"
"See, you got baby-fat! Unlike the fat I got piled on which is stiff, yours will melt easily, say 7 or 8 months.."
7 or 8 months? The rate at which I'm melting away like a candle, it looks like I'll drop the pounds entirely in 6 months. But let's not get ahead of myself. I don't wanna set myself up. Slow and steady, slow and steady.. Lifestyle change, remember? Yes!
Today, rice and veges for lunch and a chai so far. I'm going to force myself to exercise now. Dinner at friends tonight. I dont wanna go. That's where I get derailed. I either end up eating a lot or a little, and then come home hungry and wanna eat everything. Baby's napping right now. Let me do an hour. Maybe I will feel motivated again, but trouble is I got a full stomach. I had eaten lunch alone but hubby fed me five big bites later with his hands. I couldn't possibly say 'no' to his loving hands.
I don't wanna give up.
.............
I did NOT give up.
As soon as I posted the above stuff, I got on the bike and worked out for 80 minutes. My sis-in-law called, in the meantime, to tell me she'd seen my latest facebook photo and I looked thinner. Well, well! :) .. I was hoping to lift weights thereafter but baby woke up and we had to get ready to go to the party.
I showered and the dreaded moment arrived: I had to choose clothes to wear. I hate it coz nothing fits and nothing looks right. It's always a moment of disappointment. I wanted to wear a shirt and pants but my hubby wanted me to wear shalwar qameez. .. I glanced into the closet. I've been eyeing this shalwar qameez that I had never worn before coz it didn't fit. Since I had nothing to wear, I reluctantly reached for the qameez. I was sure it wouldn't fit but the only reason I grabbed it was to see how much longer before I could fit into it.
I wore the first outfit. It fit! ... But I had to take it off coz the shalwar was see-through.
My hubby suggested I try on the second one. "Oh, that will NEVER fit.. That was probably meant for my skinny sister-in-law but it accidentally ended up in my pile."
"At least try it on."
"Okay.."
IT FIT!!!!!!!!! There was a slight bunch-up in the tummy area. My hubby suggested I wear my spanx underneath. "Oh, spanx? They won't fit. The last time I wore them I almost suffocated!"
"Well, last time you were a lot heavier."
The spanx fit. I looked seamless and I felt goooood.
"I wish I had started this program before. What was I waiting for? I just might be one of those folks who lose weight very quickly!"
"See, you got baby-fat! Unlike the fat I got piled on which is stiff, yours will melt easily, say 7 or 8 months.."
7 or 8 months? The rate at which I'm melting away like a candle, it looks like I'll drop the pounds entirely in 6 months. But let's not get ahead of myself. I don't wanna set myself up. Slow and steady, slow and steady.. Lifestyle change, remember? Yes!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Do or Die!
Wednesday:
Breakfast: cereal
Lunch: Haleem
Dinner: Biryani.
Dessert: Shahi tukray
Exercise: 70 minutes on bike
Wore my shalwar qameez that I wasn't able to wear coz it was so tight before.. Well, it fit perfectly and I felt good about myself! :)
Thursday:
Brunch: Biryani
Dinner: Chicken fried rice
Dessert: Shahi tukray
Exercise: 65 minutes on bike, 35 minutes strength training, 2 hour walk at a slow pace.
Breakfast: cereal
Lunch: Haleem
Dinner: Biryani.
Dessert: Shahi tukray
Exercise: 70 minutes on bike
Wore my shalwar qameez that I wasn't able to wear coz it was so tight before.. Well, it fit perfectly and I felt good about myself! :)
Thursday:
Brunch: Biryani
Dinner: Chicken fried rice
Dessert: Shahi tukray
Exercise: 65 minutes on bike, 35 minutes strength training, 2 hour walk at a slow pace.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Hips dont lie, neither do numbers..
Doctor's visit in the a.m. I reluctantly stepped on the weighing scale. 185 lbs. FUFF!!!!!! After all this time of killing myself??? Why? My clothes fit better and my face is smaller. How can it be?
Realistically, I last weighed myself in August of last year. I was 185 then. Maybe I got bigger between then and the day I started my diet and exercise. Either way, whatever.
I had a quarter plate of rice for breakfast, followed by a quarter plate of chicken and one roti. I went for a walk in the afternoon and then used the bike for 80 mins. I did 20 minutes of strength training and 20 minutes of sit-ups. All in all, 2 hours! Yaye!
For dinner, I had two slices of pizza and five Tbsp of garbanzo chaat.
Realistically, I last weighed myself in August of last year. I was 185 then. Maybe I got bigger between then and the day I started my diet and exercise. Either way, whatever.
I had a quarter plate of rice for breakfast, followed by a quarter plate of chicken and one roti. I went for a walk in the afternoon and then used the bike for 80 mins. I did 20 minutes of strength training and 20 minutes of sit-ups. All in all, 2 hours! Yaye!
For dinner, I had two slices of pizza and five Tbsp of garbanzo chaat.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Two weeks later..
Pants on the ground! ... Almost, lol!
Size 16 pants constantly slipping. I catch myself pulling them higher continuously. It's a good sign but its somewhat embarrassing in public. I need to put a belt around my waist until I can't help it anymore. I got plenty of size 14 pants that I grew out of after pregnancy. They'll come in handy now.
It's so hard to believe it's been two weeks and I can already see my body changing. I need to keep it up, though I almost slipped off the wagon today.
Breakfast: One scoop of rice and three chicken drumsticks.
Lunch: One slice of pizza and a bit of rice and pasta. Hmm..
Snack: 1/2 a banana and a cup of low-fat tiramisu. ... Grr..
Dinner: SKIPPED IT... too full and feeling a bit guilty over the tiramisu.. sigh.
Exercise: 55 minutes on bike, the last 20 of which I had my baby on my lap. I didn't want to give up. I was going to exercise no matter what. And actually the baby provided resistance for my legs, lol. She enjoyed it too. Way to go. ... Before lunch, we went to the park and hung out for an hour. There wasn't much walking involved but hey, standing up it's better than being on the couch. Same thoughts about the 7 p.m. to 8 p.m. hour. Took my baby to the gym to check out what sort of classes they got for mothers and their 1 yr-olds. Once my baby warmed up to the surroundings, she loved chasing footballs and walking around, and I enjoyed chasing her too :). It was fun!
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I will get weighed at the appointment. I'm a bit nervous because I want the scale to show me a happy number but I'm preparing myself to see no change at all. I don't want to risk getting disappointed.
All in all, a day well spent, minus the tiramisu..
Size 16 pants constantly slipping. I catch myself pulling them higher continuously. It's a good sign but its somewhat embarrassing in public. I need to put a belt around my waist until I can't help it anymore. I got plenty of size 14 pants that I grew out of after pregnancy. They'll come in handy now.
It's so hard to believe it's been two weeks and I can already see my body changing. I need to keep it up, though I almost slipped off the wagon today.
Breakfast: One scoop of rice and three chicken drumsticks.
Lunch: One slice of pizza and a bit of rice and pasta. Hmm..
Snack: 1/2 a banana and a cup of low-fat tiramisu. ... Grr..
Dinner: SKIPPED IT... too full and feeling a bit guilty over the tiramisu.. sigh.
Exercise: 55 minutes on bike, the last 20 of which I had my baby on my lap. I didn't want to give up. I was going to exercise no matter what. And actually the baby provided resistance for my legs, lol. She enjoyed it too. Way to go. ... Before lunch, we went to the park and hung out for an hour. There wasn't much walking involved but hey, standing up it's better than being on the couch. Same thoughts about the 7 p.m. to 8 p.m. hour. Took my baby to the gym to check out what sort of classes they got for mothers and their 1 yr-olds. Once my baby warmed up to the surroundings, she loved chasing footballs and walking around, and I enjoyed chasing her too :). It was fun!
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I will get weighed at the appointment. I'm a bit nervous because I want the scale to show me a happy number but I'm preparing myself to see no change at all. I don't want to risk getting disappointed.
All in all, a day well spent, minus the tiramisu..
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Fri-Sat
I've been away from the blog. Quick note: Didn't exercise Friday other than a two hour walk grocery shopping, if 1 mile an hour counts, i.e. I don't remember what I ate Friday but it wasn't off the wagon.
Saturday: I had cereal for dinner, soup for lunch and haleem for dinner. I used the bike for 50 minutes.
Today, I had cereal for breakfast, haleem (2 bowls) for lunch and a small plate of chicken with half a pita bread for dinner. I exercised for 50 mins on the bike and went for a walk for 10 mins.
Saturday: I had cereal for dinner, soup for lunch and haleem for dinner. I used the bike for 50 minutes.
Today, I had cereal for breakfast, haleem (2 bowls) for lunch and a small plate of chicken with half a pita bread for dinner. I exercised for 50 mins on the bike and went for a walk for 10 mins.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Tough day..
Pizza for breakfast, two slices loaded with veges.
Lunch: dahi baray, two pieces or one palmful.
Dinner: dahi baray, khareena. Two palmfuls.
Not bad.
Just polished a cup of kheer. I deserve it.
Exercise:
Aside from picking up my baby for half a day, I did 70 minutes of cardio on the bike and burned 800 calories. I also did half an hour of weightlifting. Not bad.
I measured my bum. I've gained back half an inch. Bad. It troubled me. My hubby says my bum flab's turning into muscle, therefore it's expanded. If I keep up and not get disheartened, the thing will shrink and then keep burning. Let's hope it's true. I will research it tonight.
So, 36-41-49. Sigh...
Lunch: dahi baray, two pieces or one palmful.
Dinner: dahi baray, khareena. Two palmfuls.
Not bad.
Just polished a cup of kheer. I deserve it.
Exercise:
Aside from picking up my baby for half a day, I did 70 minutes of cardio on the bike and burned 800 calories. I also did half an hour of weightlifting. Not bad.
I measured my bum. I've gained back half an inch. Bad. It troubled me. My hubby says my bum flab's turning into muscle, therefore it's expanded. If I keep up and not get disheartened, the thing will shrink and then keep burning. Let's hope it's true. I will research it tonight.
So, 36-41-49. Sigh...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Lots of exercise today!!!!!!!!
One hour of cardio on the bike.
20 minutes sit-ups.
20 minutes weight lifting.
Not bad, huh?
What motivated me? I put the tape to my bum and noticed I 'gained' half an inch. Can that be possible? I mean overnight? Either my cells multiply and divide or I gain weight by inhaling air.. I don't get it. 49"... Was the kheer responsible? The pizza? A day of no cardio?
In any case, I shifted my bum into gear, literally. I woke up determined. Did half an hour. During the final five minutes, I pedalled with the baby in my lap. She wouldn't have it any other way and Daddy was in a hurry to go to work. You've got to do what you gotta do.
I did sit-ups as my child laughed and found it funny. I made breakfast with her in my arms because she's going through some strange phase. In the process, I added too much salt to the eggs. Couldn't eat much.
A while ago, baby went to sleep. I got back on the bike for half an hour. After that, I lifted weights. I even handed a dumbell to my mother-in-law. She enjoyed it so much she asked 'why didn't you give this to me before?' :) .. I'll buy her a couple so that she continues working out when she goes back.
Dinner? No idea what we're eating. We haven't even had lunch yet.. I'll update the rest later. But at least I'm happy I got my exercise for the day!
20 minutes sit-ups.
20 minutes weight lifting.
Not bad, huh?
What motivated me? I put the tape to my bum and noticed I 'gained' half an inch. Can that be possible? I mean overnight? Either my cells multiply and divide or I gain weight by inhaling air.. I don't get it. 49"... Was the kheer responsible? The pizza? A day of no cardio?
In any case, I shifted my bum into gear, literally. I woke up determined. Did half an hour. During the final five minutes, I pedalled with the baby in my lap. She wouldn't have it any other way and Daddy was in a hurry to go to work. You've got to do what you gotta do.
I did sit-ups as my child laughed and found it funny. I made breakfast with her in my arms because she's going through some strange phase. In the process, I added too much salt to the eggs. Couldn't eat much.
A while ago, baby went to sleep. I got back on the bike for half an hour. After that, I lifted weights. I even handed a dumbell to my mother-in-law. She enjoyed it so much she asked 'why didn't you give this to me before?' :) .. I'll buy her a couple so that she continues working out when she goes back.
Dinner? No idea what we're eating. We haven't even had lunch yet.. I'll update the rest later. But at least I'm happy I got my exercise for the day!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
No exercise today!
Soup for breakfast, followed by a cup of kheer.
Lunch: 4 chicken pieces and a roti.
Dinner: 3 slices of pizza.
No cardio today. Baby didn't sleep much. When husband came home, he couldn't handle her on his own. She was being quite clingy. I did manage to lift weights for half an hour. It's 10:30 p.m. I'm tempted to get on the bike but very tired and sore.
36 - 41 - 48 1/2 ..
Pear-shape's gotta go. 10 inches to perfection! :)
Lunch: 4 chicken pieces and a roti.
Dinner: 3 slices of pizza.
No cardio today. Baby didn't sleep much. When husband came home, he couldn't handle her on his own. She was being quite clingy. I did manage to lift weights for half an hour. It's 10:30 p.m. I'm tempted to get on the bike but very tired and sore.
36 - 41 - 48 1/2 ..
Pear-shape's gotta go. 10 inches to perfection! :)
Monday, March 1, 2010
Another half inch gone. This is ridiculous! Had I known I could lose weight this rapidly I would've done this a long time ago.
I used the bike for 73 minutes, today, and burned 945 calories. I would've done more but my child woke up. :)
I've exercised 8 days in a row, now. The first day I exercised is also the day my daughter took her first real steps. Two weeks prior to that, she had taken four steps which were her very first attempt. I was sad that I had missed the sight because I was out and about. A week later, she is almost ready to run, mashallah! In a funny way, I see myself the same way. I pushed myself the first day of this exercise routine. Although the first 20 minutes are still hell, I am eager to drop whatever I'm doing and turning to the bike. The most surprising thing is that I believed it took 21 days to form a habit. Maybe that was one of my biggest flawed assumptions in the past!
So, 48 1/2 - 41 - 36. For some reason, the belly fat isn't going anywhere yet. Childbirth, perhaps? Or is it just plain difficult to shift that stuff?
Today's food:
Breakfast: I pulled a new croissant recipe out of my head. Normally, I'd make croissants loaded with fat... cream cheese! Funny how, between my husband and myself, we'd finish an entire stick of cream cheese in one sitting. This morning, I skipped cream cheese and stuffed the croissants with mushroom, jalapeno, and olives instead. I liked them but restricted myself to 3 pieces. No idea how many calories that was.
Lunch: Met with friends. Between running after my child and eating, I had bowtie pasta, a garlic bread (which I wish I had cut in half because I realized it was too big for my appetite, lol!), and a small piece of coconut chicken (minus the gravy). Since it was my friend's birthday, I had a teaspoon of cake, I swear!
Dinner: This is dangerous.. I had a palmfull of boiled rice, two pieces of chicken and a cup of kheer! THE BEST KHEER I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE!!!!!! Couldn't resist. .. Now, the problem is... there's a big pot of kheer in the refrigerator. What am I going to do?
I used the bike for 73 minutes, today, and burned 945 calories. I would've done more but my child woke up. :)
I've exercised 8 days in a row, now. The first day I exercised is also the day my daughter took her first real steps. Two weeks prior to that, she had taken four steps which were her very first attempt. I was sad that I had missed the sight because I was out and about. A week later, she is almost ready to run, mashallah! In a funny way, I see myself the same way. I pushed myself the first day of this exercise routine. Although the first 20 minutes are still hell, I am eager to drop whatever I'm doing and turning to the bike. The most surprising thing is that I believed it took 21 days to form a habit. Maybe that was one of my biggest flawed assumptions in the past!
So, 48 1/2 - 41 - 36. For some reason, the belly fat isn't going anywhere yet. Childbirth, perhaps? Or is it just plain difficult to shift that stuff?
Today's food:
Breakfast: I pulled a new croissant recipe out of my head. Normally, I'd make croissants loaded with fat... cream cheese! Funny how, between my husband and myself, we'd finish an entire stick of cream cheese in one sitting. This morning, I skipped cream cheese and stuffed the croissants with mushroom, jalapeno, and olives instead. I liked them but restricted myself to 3 pieces. No idea how many calories that was.
Lunch: Met with friends. Between running after my child and eating, I had bowtie pasta, a garlic bread (which I wish I had cut in half because I realized it was too big for my appetite, lol!), and a small piece of coconut chicken (minus the gravy). Since it was my friend's birthday, I had a teaspoon of cake, I swear!
Dinner: This is dangerous.. I had a palmfull of boiled rice, two pieces of chicken and a cup of kheer! THE BEST KHEER I'VE EVER HAD IN MY LIFE!!!!!! Couldn't resist. .. Now, the problem is... there's a big pot of kheer in the refrigerator. What am I going to do?
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Another one bites the dust
Another half inch gone bye-bye! Bum measured 49" this morning. Woohoo!
I wasn't able to keep up with the workout today, however, so one woohoo less. I only cycled for 30 minutes and burned 300 calories in the process.
Food today:
Biryani for breakfast ate out of a quarter plate. Not sure how many calories.
Qeema puff and 2 enchiladas for lunch with a generous sprinkling of cheddar cheese on top.
Biryani and chicken for dinner, eaten off a quarter plate.
I didn't have soup today. I'm not sure how many calories I consumed. Hmm. But I walked at the mall for 2 hours searching for a gift. It should help, I think. And I kept a Fiber One bar in my purse in case I got hungry, which I did. The bar definitely was a healthy substitute for Mickey-D! LOL!
I promised myself I would lift weights and sit on the bike for another half hour in the evening but it didn't materialize. I don't want to be upset, though. I will make up for it tomorrow.
A friend of mine is, by the way, working out for two hours a day - an hour in the morning and an hour in the evening. She's rapidly slimming down. I don't know if its safe. You also tend to read about people who end up with lots of loose, dangling skin when they drop lbs rapidly.
I wasn't able to keep up with the workout today, however, so one woohoo less. I only cycled for 30 minutes and burned 300 calories in the process.
Food today:
Biryani for breakfast ate out of a quarter plate. Not sure how many calories.
Qeema puff and 2 enchiladas for lunch with a generous sprinkling of cheddar cheese on top.
Biryani and chicken for dinner, eaten off a quarter plate.
I didn't have soup today. I'm not sure how many calories I consumed. Hmm. But I walked at the mall for 2 hours searching for a gift. It should help, I think. And I kept a Fiber One bar in my purse in case I got hungry, which I did. The bar definitely was a healthy substitute for Mickey-D! LOL!
I promised myself I would lift weights and sit on the bike for another half hour in the evening but it didn't materialize. I don't want to be upset, though. I will make up for it tomorrow.
A friend of mine is, by the way, working out for two hours a day - an hour in the morning and an hour in the evening. She's rapidly slimming down. I don't know if its safe. You also tend to read about people who end up with lots of loose, dangling skin when they drop lbs rapidly.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Measurements
In my excited tirade last night, I forgot to mention my measurements: 51 - 41 - 39... Hardly appetizing!
I probably wouldn't have thought of measuring myself, except for two reasons: I recently ordered clothes from Pakistan. The lady has to stitch them. .. Oh, oh.. Here's embarrassing situation # 2: The qameez that I absolutely loved cannot be stitched for me... coz there simply isn't enough material!!!!!!!!!!!
"Your hips are 51" all around... The fabric isn't sufficient."
Okay...
How did I react? I chose another fabric that could cover my ass without a problem even though I really liked this one.. and then I sat on the bike for another hour and burned 800 calories. I kept my eyes on my baby's picture the entire time and I prayed to God for help. I need the stamina to keep up with this.
Another reason I reached for the measuring tape: I was reading up on the Calorie burning calculator and chanced upon Dr. Oz's website, RealAge. Dr. Oz strongly recommends you measure yourself instead of weighing, and especially keep track of the waistline. ..
I had never thought about that! Come to think about it, it makes perfect sense. Our weight might drop and then plateau.. and in some cases even bounce right back up. In the past, I gave up primarily because I would get disheartened by the number on the scale. But with the tape measure, I can actually watch my body change.
The website recommends losing 1/2 inch every two weeks, or 1 inch a month. I need to reduce my waist to 32. Doing the math, it will take me 9 months to shrink my waistline. Hmm. That sounds pretty realistic. I know people who set deadlines of two months to lose 50 lbs. They get disappointed when two months turn into three and they still haven't lost much.
I think I have the right mindframe... finally!
By the way, I just got off the bike after an hour of cardio. I had soup for breakfast (120 calories) and two glasses of cold water. My mother-in-law is cooking a fabulous indian meal. Not sure how many calories that has but I'll try to keep my portion size small.. and actually put my food on a quarter plate. It won't be easy since she makes the best Hyderabadi food but I know I need to stay committed.
Also, I measured my bum last night. I've shrunk 1.5 inches already, all in the span of 5 days! I should celebrate... with a handful of grapes!
I probably wouldn't have thought of measuring myself, except for two reasons: I recently ordered clothes from Pakistan. The lady has to stitch them. .. Oh, oh.. Here's embarrassing situation # 2: The qameez that I absolutely loved cannot be stitched for me... coz there simply isn't enough material!!!!!!!!!!!
"Your hips are 51" all around... The fabric isn't sufficient."
Okay...
How did I react? I chose another fabric that could cover my ass without a problem even though I really liked this one.. and then I sat on the bike for another hour and burned 800 calories. I kept my eyes on my baby's picture the entire time and I prayed to God for help. I need the stamina to keep up with this.
Another reason I reached for the measuring tape: I was reading up on the Calorie burning calculator and chanced upon Dr. Oz's website, RealAge. Dr. Oz strongly recommends you measure yourself instead of weighing, and especially keep track of the waistline. ..
I had never thought about that! Come to think about it, it makes perfect sense. Our weight might drop and then plateau.. and in some cases even bounce right back up. In the past, I gave up primarily because I would get disheartened by the number on the scale. But with the tape measure, I can actually watch my body change.
The website recommends losing 1/2 inch every two weeks, or 1 inch a month. I need to reduce my waist to 32. Doing the math, it will take me 9 months to shrink my waistline. Hmm. That sounds pretty realistic. I know people who set deadlines of two months to lose 50 lbs. They get disappointed when two months turn into three and they still haven't lost much.
I think I have the right mindframe... finally!
By the way, I just got off the bike after an hour of cardio. I had soup for breakfast (120 calories) and two glasses of cold water. My mother-in-law is cooking a fabulous indian meal. Not sure how many calories that has but I'll try to keep my portion size small.. and actually put my food on a quarter plate. It won't be easy since she makes the best Hyderabadi food but I know I need to stay committed.
Also, I measured my bum last night. I've shrunk 1.5 inches already, all in the span of 5 days! I should celebrate... with a handful of grapes!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Fat
I am fat.
I am 185 lbs - well, at least that's how much I weight last week.. Or was it last month?
Oh, nevermind!
I am fat.. and a lady, who I barely know, reinforced the fact last week in public and embarrassed the hell out of me. "You're fatter than the last time I saw you! .. And you were 8 months pregnant at the time!"
I was surprised to hear that. I thought I had heard "You look slimmer than the last time I saw you!", like so many people tell me. Of course, those people are being polite. Even at that instant, a couple women jumped up and tried to defend me.. "I think she's lost weight!"
Although I appreciate this woman's honesty, I do not believe her. I was 216 lbs right before I gave birth and ultimately returned to my pre-pregnancy weight of 185 lbs. So, there's absolutely no way her opinion held merit.
Still... it hit a nerve. There were two supporters, but there were also two other's who mocked me. The group searched for an unhappy expression on my face. I was determined not to give them the satisfaction. Instead, I agreed with this woman 100%, even though I disagreed with her judgment. I couldn't risk getting embarrassed further now, could I?
I had made many promises to myself that I would lose weight once and for all. I broke each one of those promises. I've had weight management issues my entire life. Now that I'm in my thirties, I've often wondered if I should care anymore. Half my life has passed me by... why bother?
Of course I should bother! I have a loving husband a precious daughter. I need to live a healthy lifestyle so I can be with them a few more years, or at least hope.
I need to lose this weight so I can play with my kid.
I need to lose this weight so I can inspire her to live a healthy lifestyle.
I need to lose this weight so when she grows older, she won't feel a wee bit negative about me when she compares me to her friends' fit mommies.
I probably should omit the last sentence because I hope my kid doesn't embrace a shallow mindset, but hey.. no one has full control over every aspect of their child's life.. One can only try to do their very best.
I came home and relayed the story to my husband and even my baby. "Wife is fat!" "Mommy is fat!"
Husband thought I would cry next. In the past, he's seen many a tear over the weight topic. I gave him a smile. "Are you okay?" he asked.
"Sure!"
"Sure?"
"No point getting upset. Anger will do nothing for me, but getting a realistic plan will!"
This lady did me a huge favor, even though I do not believe her one bit. But, she opened my eyes up. I am determined to lose this weight once and for all so I never have to hear something so judgmental, if I can help it."
I started my diet and exercise regimen on Monday, February 22.
I have substituted at least one meal a day with soup. The soup cans, luckily, went on sale too! LOL!
I exercise on the recumbent bike every day for one full hour and I burn 800 calories in the process. The first 20 minutes are a bitch, but oh well.. I have my daughter and my husband's pictures in front of me. I look at the framed photos the entire time so I can remain focused. I do not kid!
I am 185 lbs - well, at least that's how much I weight last week.. Or was it last month?
Oh, nevermind!
I am fat.. and a lady, who I barely know, reinforced the fact last week in public and embarrassed the hell out of me. "You're fatter than the last time I saw you! .. And you were 8 months pregnant at the time!"
I was surprised to hear that. I thought I had heard "You look slimmer than the last time I saw you!", like so many people tell me. Of course, those people are being polite. Even at that instant, a couple women jumped up and tried to defend me.. "I think she's lost weight!"
Although I appreciate this woman's honesty, I do not believe her. I was 216 lbs right before I gave birth and ultimately returned to my pre-pregnancy weight of 185 lbs. So, there's absolutely no way her opinion held merit.
Still... it hit a nerve. There were two supporters, but there were also two other's who mocked me. The group searched for an unhappy expression on my face. I was determined not to give them the satisfaction. Instead, I agreed with this woman 100%, even though I disagreed with her judgment. I couldn't risk getting embarrassed further now, could I?
I had made many promises to myself that I would lose weight once and for all. I broke each one of those promises. I've had weight management issues my entire life. Now that I'm in my thirties, I've often wondered if I should care anymore. Half my life has passed me by... why bother?
Of course I should bother! I have a loving husband a precious daughter. I need to live a healthy lifestyle so I can be with them a few more years, or at least hope.
I need to lose this weight so I can play with my kid.
I need to lose this weight so I can inspire her to live a healthy lifestyle.
I need to lose this weight so when she grows older, she won't feel a wee bit negative about me when she compares me to her friends' fit mommies.
I probably should omit the last sentence because I hope my kid doesn't embrace a shallow mindset, but hey.. no one has full control over every aspect of their child's life.. One can only try to do their very best.
I came home and relayed the story to my husband and even my baby. "Wife is fat!" "Mommy is fat!"
Husband thought I would cry next. In the past, he's seen many a tear over the weight topic. I gave him a smile. "Are you okay?" he asked.
"Sure!"
"Sure?"
"No point getting upset. Anger will do nothing for me, but getting a realistic plan will!"
This lady did me a huge favor, even though I do not believe her one bit. But, she opened my eyes up. I am determined to lose this weight once and for all so I never have to hear something so judgmental, if I can help it."
I started my diet and exercise regimen on Monday, February 22.
I have substituted at least one meal a day with soup. The soup cans, luckily, went on sale too! LOL!
I exercise on the recumbent bike every day for one full hour and I burn 800 calories in the process. The first 20 minutes are a bitch, but oh well.. I have my daughter and my husband's pictures in front of me. I look at the framed photos the entire time so I can remain focused. I do not kid!
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