Bad day

So many toxic people. So many issues. Unnecessary issues. My heart is breaking right now. I'm trying to keep it together.

wow, more than a month...

i last wrote on april 8. although i've been away from the blog, i haven't given up.

i joined a gym on april 15 and have regularly worked out for an hour and a half almost every day. i'm proud of myself.

i haven't lost a great deal of weight, yet... which is okay because i want to stick to the program and go slow rather than bust my ass and then give up, disillusioned for not being able to see quick results.

i am, however, finding it hard to control my diet. i dont count calories and i dont keep a food journal. i'm tempted to try slim fast but i'm afraid of starvation diets. hmm.